three hundred and fifty two
Friday, August 01, 2008 @ 10:53:00 PM

im so freaking glad tennis is postponed to monday
my stupid knee hurts
even after i taped it
this is annoying
schools starting in like TEN days
time passes so quickly
its already de second year
and before i know it
i would have graduated
and i dont really see any directions in my life yet
everythings still kinda hazy
and its so scary
life is really too short
my mom was saying once you hit de 20th mark
time will just whizz by
i dont wanna waste away my youth
only to have regrets later in my life
like when im seventy
sitting on my rocking chair
staring into de distance
and feeling ohsoemotional
about my wasted life
and not seizing de moment to do whatever i want
and when i realize it
i cant fulfill it anymore
thats gonna be so so sad
okay my idea of growing old is so scary
haha
perhaps it wont be like that
i seriously hope it wont be
i just dont wanna be senile
i think its quite sad
i mean you lose all traces of memory
you forget what you like and dislike
i think when im senile i may even forget im scared of lizards
you forget de people in your life
you forget who you hate and love
its like everythings a blank
your lifes a blank
memories are what made us and losing them is sucha scary thought
slowly you cant even cope with living
and have to be so dependent on someone
like being reduced to a stage of infancy
sucha scary notion
anyways sam thinks i should see a doctor
cos of too much friction in my joints
haha and eileen keeps scaring me with terms like osteoarthritis
how would life be twenty years down de road ...