one shot at a time
Cameras are simple tools designed to capture images.
Images that tell us more about ourselves than we realize.
They remind us of the long journey we’ve taken.
The loved ones who traveled alongside of us.
Those we lost along the way.
And those waiting for us on the road ahead.
-desperate housewives
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loves swim.tennis.tan.wakeboard.cycle.run.kayak.
camwhore.doodle.sleep.teevee.eat.gym.blog.talk.
lounge.chill out.shop.read.cook.travel.photography
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Thursday, February 23, 2006 @ 6:32:00 PM
its been tiring..trying to juggle everything..i simply cant cope at all..much as i wanna hold on..improve day by day..prove those who look down on me wrong..and make it to de end and to the top..but it seems everything is a dismal failure..everything does not wanna turn out de way i planned it..i m tired..everything is vying for my attention..i m trying to juggle all de things i have on hand..it seems more and more are coming and i simply m getting more confused and disorientated..
i cant even ensure i m making progress..it seems like all de effort is going down de drain..reap no returns at all..i still feel fear when i go out to sea..i m just so scared..i m so panicky i m using 55% of my energy stabalising on de boat..and only 45% to row de boat..i feel so unsure..much as i wanna try my best and enjoy de sea out there i cant let go of de fear..its so tiring..knowing you are putting in effort yet not reaping any results..sometimes i feel so tired..so tired i just wanna stop rowing in de midst of all de laps..just totally stop..there are pple supporting me i know..jocelyn does her best to give me advice..cheryl and clara are there to support me..i feel like i m letting dem down..but i m really drained..i cant cope..perhaps like pple say..if you dun have sucha big head dun wear such a big hat..maybe it is just too much for me to take..give me some time..let me think it thru..let me put my priorities into perspective..
for now just give me some time..i hope i wont make a decision i will regret for life ..