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Tuesday, January 18, 2005 @ 4:17:00 PM
i m finally back to update..been very busy nowadays..i got so many many things to do..haiz and i finally got de full timetable wif lectures and tutorials..hmph..i end late on mon and thurs..damn la..end only at 410..who was de idiot who told me arts fac is de fac dat does not have to stay till 410 on many daes..hmph..but compared to de triple science students..hmm..2 daes is nothing much la..haha..compared to their 4 daes..den cca on monday wednesday and friday..den i have got officers training course..den i have to go back to sac..and den training..and damn la..i got a project frm hq..de orientation programme for all sec 1s of 2005..haiz..i keep telling myself i can cope but ya..in actual fact i cant la..i cant deny de fact dat i sleep during sch hours..i fell asleep wen de principal was speaking abt sch rules..argh shut up la..like we din know de rules..just choosing to break dem wad..hmph..but i wasnt de only one sleeping..everyone was also sleeping or stoning..haiz..din go for project work lecture and damn it they had to take attendance..hmm..so ya..wad to do..sarah yazzie peiling ben and me..we always wanna sleep after break..we wld make great plans to not go for lectures..so ya..but we usually turn up..*see wad good students we are..ya and wen we decided to be bad..haiz it goes wrong..hmph..i m damn tired now la..tmr will be worse..sch..den sea sports orientation..den i have to go all de way to hq..for some otc meeting..argh!!! so gonna die can..already i m feeling damn worn out..should i skip orientation..but its gonna be real fun..HOW..den i still have training..haiz..SOMEONE TEACH ME TO MANAGE MY TIME.. haiz..and de econs tutor just keep giving us stuff to do..haiz..i dun like her hmph..well but i like MR T. haha..he is such a joker..haha..hmph..refuse to let me draw venn diagram using squares..and i like de GP tutor..haha..i like my class..cos we are noisy noisy and simply NOISY..its a fun class to be in k..we are known as de most fun class in de arts fac..haha..yay.. i m having fun..ya rite..so tired dat i dun feel dat its fun..i shall devote one day to full time sleeping..hmph..i m getting really whiny nowadays..hmph..TIRED!!!
disappointments... been thinking loads nowadays esp abt wad pple tell me..haiz..well..i really dun know la..i know i m not perfect la..i m far frm it..but ya..i really m trying..actually m i..or simply have i overrated my abilities..did i make a mistake in getting involved in so many things and letting myself take on many commitments..have i..someone pls save me la..just tell me wad i shld do..shld i continue de way i m..being mediocre in everything..i really dun know..shld i even haven chosen sea sports..as in actual training hasnt even started..and ya..i havent really been doing much for de corp in sac..i mean wad do i actually want..dis is wad coach said to me and i tink its really true la..wad do i really want..wad do i expect frm myself..by taking on so many stuffs..m i ruining wad i already have..i dun wanna disappoint anyone..i really dun wanna hear stuffs like u cld have done much much better..i rather u said straight in my face dat i suck.. i m really tired out la..lets hope i will soon adapt to de hectic life..and hopefully i wun be giving substardard performance and u wont be disappointed anymore..m i lying to myself..can i really commit myself to so many things..will i be quick enough to adapt..or m i just gonna be like dat..argh..i dun know..i dun wanna know..can i continue to live in a state of self denial..everyone expects a certain amount of effort put in by me..i m trying..really..i m really trying..i m currently struggling to keep afloat wif so many things bogging me down..will i float or will i sink..i really dun know la..com is really inching damn near la..i dun know..will someone just solve my prob overnight..is there a possibility dat i go to sleep and wake up de next morning knowing wad is de next step i should take.. is there ever such a possibility...
