one shot at a time
Cameras are simple tools designed to capture images.
Images that tell us more about ourselves than we realize.
They remind us of the long journey we’ve taken.
The loved ones who traveled alongside of us.
Those we lost along the way.
And those waiting for us on the road ahead.
-desperate housewives
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Friday, October 01, 2004 @ 11:54:00 PM
prelims results are back...i did quite badly...actually very badly...perhaps i tried but it simply is not enough...i m getting quite sick of everything...i simply scrape thru anything...and missed JC by a point...i blame no one...it was my fault...i could not swing frm slackers mode to being a studious person...actually i m relieved dat u have given up all hopes on me...seriously...i dun care wad u tink anymore...i m nobody in ur eyes...she can do everything rite...she is studious...hardworking and i m de direct opposite frm her...does dat please u...seriously...i dun care if she surpasses me...cos i learn and study for my own sake...not for u...if u tink she wld be de one who shines...so be it...i m tired...of all comparisons...i really dun care anymore...since u tink she would make it while i wld break it...den go ahead and pin all hopes on her...yes...i m a loser and a failure...i give up cos i can nvr change dat impression in u...so i have learnt to accept it...i m sure she wun be sucha disappointment...
`y must u lie to me...y must u do all dis...wen u finally realise dat nothing is gonna be de same again...i really dun know wad to say...i m very sick of all dis rubbish...yes...i have read all ur messages...does dat please u...i dun wanna reply cos i dun know wad to say and how to care anymore...does dat answer please u...i really dun know wad u want...i m pushed to breaking point already...wad else do u want frm me...i want to give up but pple have been prompting me to carry on...but as i try to do dat...i realise i m suffocating...i realise i dun know wad to do...i realise i m lost...cos seriously i dun know wad u want...do u realise i need to have breathing space...do u realise i need some personal moments...seriously i dun wanna give up but i really dun know how to hold on...i m just letting go slowly...till one dae wen i totally do...i just feel like going into deep sleep...nvr to awake again...i wan to disappear frm here...nvr to show myself again...i wan to perish...i want to go away...and nvr return...nvr again