By Myself
Tuesday, September 21, 2004 @ 11:30:00 AM
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on
When I'm streached so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself][x2]I ask why,
But in my mindI find I can’t rely on myself
[Chorus:]
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take inI can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself][x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
[Chorus]
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect...
I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to[x2]
Don’t you knowI can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside
i m so tired...everything is not going right...i screwed most of my exams...life just sucks...just collected my higher chinese papers...i did very very badly...i never expected to do well...but never did i expect dat i wld do so badly...looking back at de past 2 years...i sort of deserved dis...my mummy advises me to drop it...she may say it is alrite...but i know deep down she is really disappointed...really disappointed...chinese has always been de subject dat she thot i cld do well in...haiz...i wanna fade away...disappear...i hate myself...i really do...anyways...it has already happened...so wad to do...
i must thank charlotte for i have aborted de decision to drop in cos i slogged really hard for it...ya and thanks for ur pullover...cos it was really cold... :)...ya...thanks so much...see huee appreciates it...
carlene...thanks for seriously getting me to calm down...thanks for de advice u and cindy gave...i appreciate it lots...so ya...luv u pple loads... :)